"You'll be with me next time I go outside. no more 3x5's" - john mayer

Sometimes I wish I was where you are. Other times I wish you were where I am. For now, I'm in my bed, somehow in the best mood I've been in since I've been sick. I think the overplay of movies/tv shows/music may have cured at least the mental-part of this sickness...(and maybe the excessive amounts of water, dayquil, oj, Cepacol, hot tea & honey, and tissues).

2 weeks- B's in town
3 weeks- Mi familia in town
3.5-4 weeks- Bud's in town

This holiday is gonna rock, even without the snow flurries.

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Thanksgiving was amazing with Brianne, Ashley, and Andre. I've NEVER had food like that in my life, and I will say I will be going over to their house on numerous occasions just to get their gourmet cooking. Their dinner was not limited to: Bacon and Herb infused Pork Loin that braised for 8-9 hours, Apple Cranberry Chutney for the pork, Roasted Butternut Squash and Sweet Potatoes with melted Parmesan, and Lemon Sage infused Risotto. Oh my Jesus, so amazing. We all sat around and talked for hours, realized our dying love for John Mayer, and then come to find out one of their friends/relatives helps manage him... well WTF!? Luckily they are going to try and make a call in so I can meet this lyrically sexy man.

I think that was also the night when my sickness turned for the worse, or at least the next morning. I even tried going into work last night and was only there for an hour and a half. Luckily I was sent home, and found myself laying in my bed with two pots of coffee. Worst decision ever, when I couldn't fall asleep until 4am. I really need to get my butt to a free clinic or any sort of doctor. The rest of the day will be spent in my bed (real change from the past few days..) with my Dayquil, Hot Tea, Chicken Noodle Soup (from a can), Endless amounts of Tissues, and Redbox. FML.

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Happy Thanksgiving! I am thankful for:

1. My family- they make it so hard to enjoy holiday's like this, and it is only because I miss them extremely! I talked with them for a couple hours today, and it only made me sad that I am so far away from the people I love. It's hard not to be there for my brothers, especially since I am the "wise older sister", but I know that they are the best brothers I could ever have asked for and that we have the rest of our lives to stay close with each other. My parents are so supportive of what I do and are so happy that I love my new life, but I could tell my mom was sad I couldn't help her set the table today, and enjoy making all the silly appetizers we found on FoodNetwork.com... My dad even referenced the commercial where the daughter calls the parents to wish them a Happy Thanksgiving, and ends up on their door step to surprise them. I wish I could even come close to doing that, but I will see them over the Christmas holiday (so excited!!!!) Today is a time to be with family and even though I miss them so much, I am retardedly thankful that they are in my life.

2. My Friends- New and Old friends make me thankful today. I can't explain how I will never find friendships like I have with my friends from Naperville. Although I have very few that are still extremely close, I know that the friends I have kept even living so far away, are ones to have forever and I am extremely lucky for Savannah, Karleen, and Tisleen. Now my newer friends I have made from living here, are a good distraction from missing my other friends. I am so lucky to find genuine people that I care about and honestly care about me too. Plus they make the whole "going out" thing a lot more fun than if I was all by myself :P

3. Stupid Late Night Shows- Since I am rarely home during the day or even the night, I get a chance to only enjoy watching the late night shows on tv. They usually are the ones that help me fall asleep or usually put me to sleep. Is it sad that I enjoy HGTV so much because of Property Virgins and Lifetime because they always have How I Met Your Mother on when I get home? I think since I've been allowed to have a tv in my room (woo hoo 21st Birthday present) I now can only fall asleep to the sound of a sitcom or infomercial.

4. Bud- Although we aren't necessarily close to each other distance wise, I find comfort in knowing that if I've had a good or bad day, I can share it with someone who is actually listening and usually can brighten the bad days quite quickly. I smile more when he's around.

5. Recipe Books- Once I finally have a lifetime to practice these delicious meals I find in magazines, online, or from my own mom's recipes, I will probably be a gourmet chef. My speciality? Beef & Potato tacos... YUM. Maybe not gourmet, but I never was a 5 star kind of girl.

6. California- particularly Southern California for now, but hopefully I'll have a chance to experience the beauty of my birth town in Northern Cali sometime soon. Even though CA has broken my face out and experienced my first car accident with me, I still enjoy every minute I have here. Now that I live close to the beach, I am even more thankful for what I never had as a kid. Normally I am sick for 8-9 months straight, starting with September and moving all through Fall, Winter, and Spring. Here, I JUST started getting sick.. and it's the beginning of December! Even though that isn't quite an amazing difference, to me it is. Hopefully I'll be able to kick this sickness' ass in the near future, and I can brag about how great California is again.

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I've finally caught the sick bug... I really didn't have it that bad recently, but definitely got it now. I think I should make a trip to the doctors soon. Although I have never seen a doctor here since I moved.. I think I'm gonna have to make some calls. I have also had some trouble keeping up with this blog... I constantly have things happen back and forth, and all I want to do is write about it. It's somewhat relaxing and gives me a release to see it on "paper". This week...

I got fired. and rehired. all within 20 minutes... seriously?! I sometimes can't believe the things that happen while I'm at work.. and this was definitely one of those times. I enjoy working there, minus one of the managers... other than that.. sweet ass money & awesome people I work with. Two of the girls invited me to Thanksgiving at their apartment. I didn't have plans for T-Giving, and these girls brought me into their house. I'm so happy to have friends that are there when I don't have my parents around. All I need to bring is wine! SCORE. It's not that I don't have family.. I do, and I love them. It is just more of a hassle to drive an hour and have to be back in school Friday morning, than take a 10 minute drive down to Newport.

Today I enjoyed hanging out with Sarah all afternoon. We had lunch at Cheesecake Factory, which I've never had before. Consensus?.. I frickin love that place. After, we "walked off" our lunch in preparation for cheesecake and candy... and allowed my addiction for fishnet tights and awesome jewelry to go at full force. We went home to watch Bride Wars, which of course brought on a whole day of girlyness. I don't remember the last time I allowed myself to be all girly and stuff...and I enjoyed it. I guess I don't always have to be "one of the guys". Although after all different types of food, my stomach hates me and I'm sure the overload of coffee an hour ago didn't help. Black Wednesday may not have been how it was last year (drunk and I kind of don't remember it) but still fun none-the-less. On to SYTYCD... and if you don't know what that is.. I'm not telling :)

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The past weekend? "slightly-but not really-an amazing-but crazy-and totally worth it" weekend. It maybe didn't necessarily go as planned, but nothing really does, or should. I was AMAZING at golf. I just think that is probably the most important thing that came out of this time! haha. I am someone that actually prides myself and being decent at a lot of things. That is usually because I'm not extremely good at anything.. so being decent is good enough for me. I whooped some ass, and had some amazing shots. The boys were even impressed a little. I'll take that as a victory. Another victory would be the amazing "behind the back" throw in beer pong on Friday. If it is not obvious, I suck at beer pong...except for that very night. No one would be my partner in college (not even my boyfriends at the time) because they didn't want to lose. And I have no words for Friday other than "champion" so everyone can suck it. I also would like to assume that I gave a good impression to his dad, even though I don't know for sure. It usually takes a few times for people to warm up to me, or more so me to them, but it seemed "peachy" just chatting about a lot of things and nothing in particular.

There were CLEARLY some not so amazing things including:
(1) Kendra's iPhone breaking on Friday night
(2) Buying Kendra a new screen ($$$ ahh!)
(3) Being overly drunk and things
(4) Work :(
(5) Bud being sick... for the whole trip
(6) Me starting to get sick
(7) Tripping out
(8) Muscle spasms
(9) Monday morning... aka having to go home

It was worth it nonetheless. This week has been a crazy mess after he left. My blow dryer got stolen on Tuesday at school. I hate people that steal for the fun of it, and I know this because we ALL have the same "tools" at school. So the question is, WHY WOULD SOMEONE STEAL SOMETHING THEY ALREADY HAVE?? Answer: for the fun of it. I use to have friends in college that did that, but at stores in the mall, etc. Such a stupid excuse for a human-being. (On a side note: I went to the police station today and filled out a police report... I have a detective on the case, and finally get to check out the security tapes). Since then, I've become the epitome of a "resistor". In school they talk about how everyone should try to be a "visionary" and keep a positive attitude. I am pretty good at that, and even when I'm having a not as good day, I some how find myself trying to make other people's days better. Even on the bad day, I'm only a "fence sitter"... but this week.. full fledged RESISTOR. I didn't pay attention in class, I didn't want to take clients, I talked back to teachers. It's ridiculous that I allowed some petty thieve to change the way I live my day-to-day life. Luckily after my personal motivational speaker got to me, I've changed my bad behavior.

This weekend will be filled with extremely busy things.. aka work. and I am/am not looking forward to it. I can't decide yet, but I'm off to bed because the "New Moon" tickets were all sold out... I'll have to enjoy a theatre full of teeny boppers at another time.

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Today is the day! There are so many great things planned for this weekend. And funny, I didn't even know it was Friday the 13th? Maybe not the best day to fly someone out to see you! On a better note, I've stocked up on all the necessities... 1.75L Gentleman's Jack, 30 pack of Bud Light, and some food. We'll be going to Claws tonight, because it was the first time we hungout before we started dating. We went with David and Sarah, and I think it was kind of a set up. Surprisingly it went well, and I'm glad I decided to go to dinner with them instead of going to the 909 that evening.

We have a lot more planned for the weekend; golf with Alex and David, Alum Lacrosse game, lunch with his dad, work (which is what i do NOT look forward to) and any other awesome things we can think of. I'm just excited for some quality time and relaxation :]



I can't wait for two days. TWO DAYS! I've been cleaning my room and doing my laundry and getting things planned. Although I am working, I will make this trip worth it. I have two more days of school and he's here.

Tonight, Kendra, Christine & I went to In-&-Out for our roomie dinner. It's really nice to get along with them so well and I just always get lucky with roommates. My first roommate at Iowa, Jessica, was the first time I had a random one. She was amazing and we got along so well regardless of the fact we came from entirely different backgrounds and areas. Even when I lived in a house full of girls (sorority) I still enjoyed my roommate, Cindy, and always had a great time with her. Once I dropped out of the sorority, I moved in quickly with 3 girls I had never met. They were also the most amazing girls I'd ever met, and even helped throw me a party when I turned 20. I think I'm just lucky, because I'm positive I haven't had a bad roommate left.

Also, I've found I have an extremely dangerous amount of love for the show "Glee". I find myself singing along with their stupid but awesome renditions of popular songs. Maybe because I secretly wished my school had a group like that... I would have definitely been the loser girl with the killer voice.. haha.

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Ok, so I haven't REALLY posted in a few days. I've been out of control busy with work and school, doing 50 hours in only 4 days. I was feeling like a crazy person tonight because I knew that tomorrow I have off of work. My first mess up... I got yelled at. But I'm over it. So far I'm really enjoying my job, we've had John Elway come in more than 3 times now. Plus I've been trying the food more regularly and bringing it home in exchange for gelato from Christine's work. (so worth it). But I'm finally starting to enjoy work, and be less nervous. School is always great, I am trying to sell product bags to pay for my way to an event in Vegas. There are hands on classes, motivational speakers, a party and awesome networking possibilities. I have NO IDEA what or where I will be once I graduate, but I know this will only further my skills and be an amazing opportunity to succeed in my profession.

I can't even remember most of my week because it feels semi like a blur, but also because I can't think of anything other than that BUD IS COMING TO TOWN. It's more like a kidnapping, because I'm using force, but not too much force. I'd like to think that he's as excited as I am. It's been since the beginning of September that I've seen him, which seems a lot longer now that I say it out loud. Sometimes I feel crazy, dating someone that lives so far away, but I come back to how awesome my life is now, and how I want to share it with someone. He wont be coming until Friday the 13th (oooo, scary) but I will probably continue to countdown until he gets here.

Also, Friday the 13th is To Write Love On Her Arms day, and from 12:00pm-4:00pm. We can support people who have been trapped by depression and addiction by writing "LOVE" on our body during that time. This organization is so special to me, not because I have ever been depressed, but my family is personally affected by it. I think anyway to get the word out and have a vision to help people struggling with life, is so important because so many people are affected by this. It just has a soft spot in my heart. I already have Love tattooed on me, but I plan on writing all over my body to show my support.

"The vision is the possibility that your best days are ahead.

The vision is the possibility that we're more loved than we'll ever know.

The vision is hope, and hope is real.

You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story.

Rescue is Possible." - TW<3OHA

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When I first met him, I knew in a moment I would have to spend the next few days re-arranging my mind so there'd be room for him to stay.